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with_discipline) wrote2011-02-06 01:23 am
with_discipline) wrote2011-02-06 01:23 am
078 | [Voice]
I believe we're approaching the influx of new crew members. It's somewhat odd that so many have vanished just beforehand. Does anyone have a solid room count? [Maybe the Admiral's just. Making room. Oh God something else to worry about. :|]
[Private]
Personal log. February fifth, year unknown.
I recently underwent an...experience with my inmate, the Borg Queen. It was facilitated by the Emergency Medical Hologram from Voyager; I was able to connect with an echo of the Borg Collective, without technological alterations or full assimilation.
I have spent several days meditating on it, but I'm finding it increasingly harder to do so. The Collective provided a near perfect emotional suppression system, something I have been - struggling with for some time now. It was not complete; I did experience certain emotions while connected, but they were largely limited to positive ones. The way Elizabeth seemed to express her emotions.
[A pause.]
It felt cohesive. Controlled. Nearly perfect. Nearly. Anything seemed possible. And if that is how the Borg feel, if that is what they believe, regularly, I--
[Another pause.]
There were many voices, a constant murmur of sound, all regulated by one force. Had the Doctor not conducted the experiment properly, I believe it would have been all too easy to lose myself in the flow. It seemed that I was physically unconnected - as if my body was an unimportant extension of the greater consciousness. A tool, more or less.
[Long, long pause.]
The Borg Queen feels a certain...sadness at the loss of her connection to the Collective. A frustration, I believe. We had an agreement that in exchange for my experiencing the Collective, she would sever herself, temporarily, from the Barge network. I'm not longer certain this is a good idea.
[Private to Data]
May we speak, Commander? I would benefit from your advice.
[Private to the Borg Queen]
We should discuss the deal we made.
[Private]
Personal log. February fifth, year unknown.
I recently underwent an...experience with my inmate, the Borg Queen. It was facilitated by the Emergency Medical Hologram from Voyager; I was able to connect with an echo of the Borg Collective, without technological alterations or full assimilation.
I have spent several days meditating on it, but I'm finding it increasingly harder to do so. The Collective provided a near perfect emotional suppression system, something I have been - struggling with for some time now. It was not complete; I did experience certain emotions while connected, but they were largely limited to positive ones. The way Elizabeth seemed to express her emotions.
[A pause.]
It felt cohesive. Controlled. Nearly perfect. Nearly. Anything seemed possible. And if that is how the Borg feel, if that is what they believe, regularly, I--
[Another pause.]
There were many voices, a constant murmur of sound, all regulated by one force. Had the Doctor not conducted the experiment properly, I believe it would have been all too easy to lose myself in the flow. It seemed that I was physically unconnected - as if my body was an unimportant extension of the greater consciousness. A tool, more or less.
[Long, long pause.]
The Borg Queen feels a certain...sadness at the loss of her connection to the Collective. A frustration, I believe. We had an agreement that in exchange for my experiencing the Collective, she would sever herself, temporarily, from the Barge network. I'm not longer certain this is a good idea.
[Private to Data]
May we speak, Commander? I would benefit from your advice.
[Private to the Borg Queen]
We should discuss the deal we made.