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I believe we're approaching the influx of new crew members. It's somewhat odd that so many have vanished just beforehand. Does anyone have a solid room count? [Maybe the Admiral's just. Making room. Oh God something else to worry about. :|]

[Private]

Personal log. February fifth, year unknown.

I recently underwent an...experience with my inmate, the Borg Queen. It was facilitated by the Emergency Medical Hologram from Voyager; I was able to connect with an echo of the Borg Collective, without technological alterations or full assimilation.

I have spent several days meditating on it, but I'm finding it increasingly harder to do so. The Collective provided a near perfect emotional suppression system, something I have been - struggling with for some time now. It was not complete; I did experience certain emotions while connected, but they were largely limited to positive ones. The way Elizabeth seemed to express her emotions.

[A pause.]

It felt cohesive. Controlled. Nearly perfect. Nearly. Anything seemed possible. And if that is how the Borg feel, if that is what they believe, regularly, I--

[Another pause.]

There were many voices, a constant murmur of sound, all regulated by one force. Had the Doctor not conducted the experiment properly, I believe it would have been all too easy to lose myself in the flow. It seemed that I was physically unconnected - as if my body was an unimportant extension of the greater consciousness. A tool, more or less.

[Long, long pause.]

The Borg Queen feels a certain...sadness at the loss of her connection to the Collective. A frustration, I believe. We had an agreement that in exchange for my experiencing the Collective, she would sever herself, temporarily, from the Barge network. I'm not longer certain this is a good idea.

[Private to Data]

May we speak, Commander? I would benefit from your advice.

[Private to the Borg Queen]

We should discuss the deal we made.

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Alternative to occupy the processes usually delegated to collecting information for the Collective. Such as accessing the network manually, or being assigned formulaic tasks. [He raised his eyebrows.] You appear nervous. Should I escort you to the infirmary?

[If she were not a Vulcan, that observation wouldn't have been followed by that question.]

[She stopped wringing her hands abruptly, shoulders stiffening just a bit. T'Pol was almost used to how the trellium had altered her control, but she wasn't so used to others noting that she didn't conduct herself like she should.] I am not nervous.

I've considered returning some of the technological implants to her, as an encouragement. [Both deflection and actually something she's been thinking of.]

Which technological implants? [None that would assist in forming a collective was his primary worry.]

[She isn't quite that curious about it, yet.] Her body, currently, is almost completely human, whereas she'd be use to far less biological aspects in her body. There would be limitations, of course. To avoid temptations.

[He's thoughtful, because it's difficult with the Borg Queen. He can't decide.] What do you suppose would occur if she were made completely inorganic, but with functions that emulated biological processes.

[But he doesn't know if he's brave enough to do something like that. Perhaps he would like her to know what he goes through on a daily basis.]

[She cocks her head to the side, curious at the suggestion.] If she were made like you? I'm uncertain. I believe she holds the technological in higher regard than the biological.

She does, though when she attempted to lure me into the Collective she firmly believed the biological still played a vital role. Though it is a risky thought. [He shrugs lightly. He would like to give her a greater appreciation for those biological bits.]

...She is quite compelling. Though it did not change that her tactics were harmful. [He starts typing something up on his PADD quickly, hand moving faster than a human's would.]

[Quite compelling doesn't quite seem emphatic enough - but it is accurate.] In what way did she believe the biological played a role?

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