Absolutely not. [She actually sounds a little scared at the idea. Which is...more than she usually sounds ever.] Trellium allowed me to access my emotions. It damaged my ability to control them, it's likely why I am having such difficulty now. Using it now would...[Okay maybe it would calm her own and that is a nice possibility because she is freaking out WAIT THAT'S BAD.]

No. I do not want to.