011 | [Voice, Accidental]

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[T'Pol accidentally hit her journal on. That she's moving at all while asleep is full of wtfery. There's a sharply indrawn breath as she wakes, then quiet but audible breathing, quicker than normal. Her heart's pounding away and you can hear her reaction to it.]

What--

[Oh, she's noticed the PADD; there's some rustling as she grabs it, silence as she briefly checks out other nightmare entries. When she speaks again, it's with an effort to sound calmer.]

Others have been having strange dreams, I see. But is not - normal - for Vulcans to...dream. Not after meditating. And it would seem unnatural for so many to have such dreams - nightmares at relatively the same moment.

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Do you?

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Yeah.

[The answer is quick though, practiced, well-rehearsed.]

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[She hears that, and is definitely arching an eyebrow. If only that made a sound.]

Sam.

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[nomoreleftshoe.livejournal.com]

[Ka-pang-wang?]

I can deal with it.

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[Best eyebrow sound EVER.]

You'll forgive me if I find that difficult to believe.

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[nomoreleftshoe.livejournal.com]

[Hurrah! However, Sam's less excited that she knows him better than he'd like.]

[A mix of callousness and self-hate:] Probably has to do with the, y'know, shooting you in the face.

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[Mind melds fuck with you like that. If he's super nice, next time he can learn about her.]

Perhaps. There is no offense where none can be taken, Sam. Your reactions to stress have been less than optimal.

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[nomoreleftshoe.livejournal.com]

[He probably needs to stop shooting her in the face though first.]

That's an understatement.

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[That would be super helpful.]

But preferable to discussing being shot in the face.

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[He'll try to keep the crazy turned to 'holyfuck' rather than 'batshit murder spree'.]

Sorry.

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[She can deal with holyfuck crazy. Murder sprees tend to end badly.]

You were not yourself. Meditation is about letting go of your emotions; if guilt stops you from doing it, you will get nowhere.

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[Yeah, especially if Sam gets a hold of a gun.]

Then I won't get anywhere.

[And to be frank, he's okay with that.]

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[No more weapons for Sammy.]

Your collapse due to exhaustion is more likely.

Re: [Private] - Also, I'm enjoying her bitch plz icon.

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[Ever. For serious.]

All the better.

Re: [Private] - Hee! I. Honestly can't remember if I made it or picked it up. :p

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[None o' that violent music either. And no video games!]

You will make yourself sick.

Re: [Private] - well, it's awesome nonetheless.

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[Damn those violent video games and all that Rammstein he listens to.]

If it'll keep me from killing people, I'd say it's a fair trade.

Re: [Private] - why thank you. :> Oh. and I blame my watching JCS so much on you. :|

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[She needs a cane to shake at him. Off the lawn!]

It was not my impression that murder was a hobby of yours.

Re: [Private] - I was humming it all today. Also, IDK what you're talking about. c:

[nomoreleftshoe.livejournal.com]

[Look at that batshit crazy lady! She gives out toothbrushes on Halloween! :/]

It's happened before.

[But, then, it had purpose. He'd been defending lives, trying to stop the Apocalypse. Or so he likes to tell himself.]

Re: [Private] - Judas was in my head all day. :|

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[That's cause she doesn't want visitors. :|]

And you had no reason for it? [Yeah, she doesn't buy it.]

Re: [Private] - It seems to me a strange thing, mystifying. That a man like him can waste your time.

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[Guh. Worst trick-or-treating house evar.]

It's what I used to do.

[A pause as he realizes he's revealing a portion of his past that he's been trying to keep away.]

I was a hunter until about a week before I came here. Someone who killed for a living.

[But those were evil things, ghosts, werewolves, things doing other people harm. And he saved countless lives devoting himself to it for years and years.]

Re: [Private] - Don't you understand he amuses?

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[This is why you avoid the little old Vulcan ladies on Halloween.]

A hunter of what? [God, Sam, lighten up.]

Re: [Private] - But he doesn't fit in well with T'Pol's vulcan ways.

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[With canes and toothbrushes.]

The supernatural. [But he's a angry, pmsing puppy.]

Re: [Private] - Then he's damned for all time. :|

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[Yup. No fun at all.]

For what reason? [Well, if he's a puppy...]

Re: [Private] - But he's frightened by the crowds, for he's getting much too loud.

[nomoreleftshoe.livejournal.com]

[A part of him doesn't want to admit that there was a good reason to the death that followed him around his whole life. Those he couldn't save hang heavily in his mind, the wall now donned with two new plaques, fresh and shiny and new.]

We were raised that way. [A shaggy, moody puppy.]

Re: [Private] - He doesn't like what he sees, just wants you to listen.

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I don't believe that answers my question. [Poor Sam. He just needs grooming and loving and non-emoing.]