012 | [Voice]

[with_discipline]

H'Esh etek vi-esh-torong sa'le-esh-tor quel sochya. Ha kashek svi'ma kae quel sochya. Ma ak'shem, ma sikrus quel sochya. Ma katra, ma ves quel sochya.
The breath we draw in and release is peace. The thoughts in our minds are peace. Our body, our limbs are peace. Our spirit, our essence is peace.

I have found that meditation has been a great help in handling the visions and dreams that have become common lately. It is unnatural for Vulcans to dream after meditating; that has not stopped whatever is causing these particular visitations, but it has made them bearable. It is my theory that such mental focus would aid others who find themselves unsettled by this. If I may be helpful in some way in this regard, I can be found on level six, room eight.

[Private to Snape]

My apologies for our lack of interaction. [A short pause] If you are having difficulties, I will do what I can to help.

Comments

[with_discipline]

He led us to the Syrranites; he had never before been on Vulcan. He had never before encountered Syrranites. After the Kir'Shara was found, the katra was removed. It would have been illogical not to believe him.

[subtlescience]

I see.

Is there still a rift on your planet, regarding this revolution, or has everyone come to accept the outcome?

[with_discipline]

I have been aware for most of the time since; from what I have heard, after the High Command disbanded, a High Council was formed, headed by T'Pau. I trusted her to help our people along the right path; the Kir'Shara was readily available. Reading it was like discovering what it truly meant to be Vulcan. As a culture, we abhor violence; the change was regarded, studied, and eventually accepted by the majority.

[subtlescience]

A happy ending for all.

I would like my full abilities returned to me.

[with_discipline]

Of sorts. I believe your transitions need work, Severus. Why?

[subtlescience]

I'll strive to pay attention to my segues in the future.

This situation - the nightmares, the voices, and now-

It's escalating. I want to be able to defend myself, should the situation call for it. I believe I have proven I have no interest in violence.

[with_discipline]

You have. However, given the situation and the likelihood of heightened emotional stress in the near future, it would be unwise to grant such a dangerous boon.

There are other measures of defense.

[subtlescience]

Such as?

[with_discipline]

You did not answer me when I asked if you have ever meditated.

[subtlescience]

Yes. It's important to clear your mind for-

Yes. I have.

Now answer my question.

[with_discipline]

For?

As I told you, Vulcans suppress their emotions. To maintain such control, meditation is necessary, nightly. I have rarely strayed from my routine, and I find it a comfort in light of what has been occurring on the ship. You may similarly find it an aid.

Private

[subtlescience]

Legilimancy and occlumancy. You've read my file.

I do not believe this will continue to be solely mental attacks, T'Pol.

My mirror has been talking to me. That is, it normally does, but this is different.

Private

[with_discipline]

Of course. Are you able to use - is it occlumancy that masks your thoughts?

What has your mirror said?

Private

[subtlescience]

It is. It is also useful for blocking external attacks.

I've not mentioned the mirror because it seems that it is not happening to anyone else - and I'm not entirely sure I...

I was awake.

Private

[with_discipline]

You are not alone. I have been glimpsing images on the edge of my vision. My mirror has not spoken to me, but I - believe I have seen people in it.

What has your mirror said?

Private

[subtlescience]

I've seen a woman. She...well, she's been speaking, but I can't hear her. Do you understand?

Private

[with_discipline]

Yes.

You fear these visions will cease to be simply that?

Private

[subtlescience]

At first, it was only nightmares, then shadows and indistinct figures at the edges of our vision...and now we see them plainly.

As I've said, it's escalating. Unless someone finds the cause and puts a stop to it, I think we can expect it to only get worse.

Private

[with_discipline]

A logical conclusion.

I don't believe you answered when I asked if you were capable of occlumancy here.

Private

[subtlescience]

Against these invasive hallucinations, no - which suggests to me that it may not be entirely mental.

I have yet to try it against other people.

Private

[with_discipline]

Agreed. It began as mental projections, I believe, but is now evolving.

I do not wish, however, to add another veritable stick to the fire by having your abilities restored.

Private

[subtlescience]

It is the only way I know to defend myself.

Private

[with_discipline]

There are other options. Rather than reacting based on instinct, consider the logical approaches. Cover or remove your mirror until this is over. Be careful in the contact you make with others, and mindful that, for now, these projections are not real. The first instinct need not be for violence.

Private

[subtlescience]

You think I left my mirror uncovered after that?

I want defense, not offense.

Private

[with_discipline]

Are there defensive spells that could be returned to you?